heh. BORING.

I found myself struggling with homeworks yesterday night. burn oil till like 1.30am.

meanwhile..I'm slacking before stuffing myself with homeworks again.

and.. HAPPY BDAE HIMLIM!

heh. see lah. ada changed skin again. :P

Its very IDIOTIC.

I failed my emaths. And I even got an F9 for it. Fail is can lah.. BUT A F9. what the @#$%^*.

I thought I would at least PASS alright. Feel like KILLING myself.

Same fer english. I've nothing to comment since I've been failing it since like.. primary 1. Except fer PSLE which was really UNEXPECTED. Likewise fer my secondary school's results. Getting an C6 wasn't and still, isn't easy.. Maybe I'll buy some TYS or assements books to brush it up. I can't keep failing RIGHT. Gotta stuff myself with books later.

Mr Vijay was nagging and nagging with my overall results when I eventually stopped him with a firm look on my face that "I'll work harder". He was out of words lah. :p

Went steamboat with candy and steve yesterday. The food.. Aaw... I didn't even eat. I CAN'T lah! Its so wasteful to spend 12bucks on me. I'm gonna return candy's mum no matter what. Heh. Im very happy yesterday with her companion. How lucky can I be man.. (:

As what my nickname goes.. cherish what you have, don regret when you lose it.

But.. even though I don't cherish my fats, I can't lose it.

But.. do I really cherish my friends? Heh.

I don't see the point of cherishing friends with two sided.

One moment she's "HEY HEY" and the other moment she's completely ignoring your presence.

I don't know if she's puting an act infront of "milk" or what. I seemed to be like.. realising.

I know that I was giving her a "dao" look whenever I see her last time. But.. this is due to the "dao-ness" she gave me right after the genting trip. I didn't realise that I was giving her attitude cos of the genting trip, and blindly I went APOLOGISING TO HER.(Make it clear man, she didn't apologise to me.) Like what I said.. I seemed to be realising. Realising is a cruel and realistic thing. Its seems as though I was living in a "mong-ca-ca" world. Heh.

I don't know..

What if..

You were taking an escalator with your old best pal.

when she didn't even greet you. and you have reached the first storey and she just walked away like that..

and when she was like "HUH-ING" when I was the one making the notices fer the secondary 1s cadets.. Is that "huh-ing" supposed to be sarcastic?

and when she was like " oh-what does weiting's daoness concerns me" to milk. She didn't said it..But milk was like" HUH how ar weiting dao me" to yiling when she just kept quiet, like hecking me just like that. But I'm still wondering why she was "eh why you so cold to me" infront of milk. Is she acting or what?

I don't know. I'm numb. Why should I care for HER man.

Theres seem to be a barrier btw me & her & me & her.

A brand new skin, AGAIN. haha yah, i get tired of things easily lah. HMM HMM. I haven touch on my homeworks, and I don't think I'm going to touch it anyway. But I have completed my emaths and chinese lah.

1 week.. GONE.

7 days.. GONE.

:(

I'm still hoping fer more holidays.

Its like so damn fast lor. Midyr exams and chinese Os will be around may. and then.. Olevels.. and then.. MY BIRTHDAY.. and then.. and then.. WOOT. I think I'll be jumping when my last paper finish.. and I'll be rushing home to DYE MY HAIR. Heh heh.

Wait..

I haven't even take my midyr examinations. *gives off a big SIGH. Awwww! But it will be my LAST yr chionging books. :D thats great right?!

Well, I have read her blog and I find her really fake lor. Let me elaborate.. She said that:" XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX"

well..I CAN'T elaborate.

Cos I'm afraid her friends will be coming across my blog and then telling her that I have wrote bout her in my entry and being "diao" again. BLAH.

I was actually requesting my mum to leave straight for home after my dinner yesterday, desiring to catch Miss Singapore Universe.(I said HOPING..I so wanted to watch cos my dad's friend daughter is in! I can't even recognise her face. she's DESTINY ONG.) But.. NO. I was DAMN BLUR LOR. I thought the results would be out yesterday.. DUH. I ended up staying at home alone, with the companion of my dog.

And I was busily clacking on my keyboard while I left my TV on..

And it was then when they suddenly mentioned " SYLVESTER SIM." guess whads next? I RAN IN DAMN HIGH VELOCITY TO THE LIVING ROOM LOR! I was caught jumping up and down in the living room.. by my dog. HEH HEH. Woot. I really enjoyed yesterday's " High On Live" leh! Its like gathering most of the singapore idol finalists for another Singapore Idol final round!

k. I'm off liao lah. Nothing to blog much anyway. :P

ps: I took many Sly's pic when he's performing. WAHAHA. okay. MADNESS.

and madness-adasim is OFF!

5 MISTAKES I MADE DURING TODAY'S SJAB ACTIVITY.

I didn't wear my name tag. doh.

I forgot to ask the sec 1 & 2s to report before "dalam buka" them.

I didn't know what to do. ( I VERY BLUR!)

I didn't shout my command clear enough for my contingent.

I was asking my cadet to stand beside me, but I went off training the contingent, leaving her behind.

HAIYO SYLVESTIFIED ADA!!

CAN DON'T BE SO BLUR OR NOT..

haha. Ada's must be thinking of sylvester too much. :P

Yah. I GUESSED everything's alright btw me & steve. Heh. Yeah GUESSED. I still can't afford to trust him like last time lor. He fetched me after my sjab activity lah, and I was very shock to see his pale face plus lips..(he looks scrawny!) There I went asking.. " Kiss too much ah you? kiss until no saliva thats why lips so pale?" Heh. But he was really quiet just now. When he talked he was like not-pronouncing-his-words-very-clearly. He was like mumbling lah with those "ouch i am very painful" look. And I asked him to stop talking. I don't know was it his heart hurt again or what. He's keeping it to himself and making me wondering- (HUH?). don't know hw am i going to react if something bad really happens. well.. lets hope not.. (ok.. ada's flipping through 8 days. haha you get the idea.HELL HE LOOKS SO KEWL. any tissue?! my saliva's dripping!:p)

haha. anyway i did catch.. like 2 episodes of american idol. ( i want singapore idol I back.. .. .. 1st december 2004.. indoor concert... SLY and taufik.. ..... ....)

and I was already "eyeing" (got inverted commas k!) lindsey.. I was hoping that she would stay in the top 11 lah. but wadthehell she WAS THE ONE being booted out last night. I was freaking pissed that i switched off my tv. Its like.. got 12 people why she's the first one to boot out of the first 12 .. Heh. nevermind. its only american idol.

sly's still can top 3 k.

:p

ok.

enough of idols.

gotta flip the 8 days again.

:P

ps: i love sly.. & steve. :P

divided attention to both of them. lala.

aha. i guessed everything's alright. (:

i took my revenge on him; he smsed me and i didn reply. he was like.. why didn you reply my msg?

heh. BRAVO. =x

i did let him know that i did that jus to let him know how i felt.

the anxiety.

okay. im rotting! i haven been doing my homeworks and stuffs. uh oh. i tink i'll rush my homeworks during weekends. there'll be sjab tml.

im scared.

VERY.

i'm off to prepare my things.

BYE!

its like 11 hours passed and i haven't receive any message from him. argh. i cried yesterday can. duh. stupid.what if you look at ur handphone and theres no new message received? I tried studying and doing my homeworks, but no, it doesn't work. he doesn't even CARE?!

gotta catch yiling for himlim's present later.

=C

okay. he's hecking me.

i dono if he's asleep. or he really hecked.

yah.love's a painful thing.

i should haf dumped him away that day when i saw "k"

cos k made me forget everything.

and i left him aside.

but i realised that he's important to me.

yet he's leaving me.

i guessed.

or maybe im too sensitive.

wadeva. he said that a gal went to seduce him. and he omos got seduced.

but he thought of me all of a sudden.

but if he really loves me i don think he'll feel seduced at first.

thaths what i tink.

i even smsed him and told him that.

he didn reply.

maybe hes asleep.

maybe he didn't even gif a damn.

i dono.

it just isnt the right time.

i'm really depressed.

argh.nono things shouldn't turn out this way.

i think right now i nid a nice sleep.

and i'll tink about this tmr.

am off to bed. :C

ONE SENTENCE. Buy 8 days if you are die-hard sly fan. Its like 13 pages of slyness with his gold coast visit.

I pity him. He got( and still being) interrogated since the R.O.M issue with the 2nd britney spears. But yah, Maia's surely hot. and we can't interfere his personal life.. But, more or less this headline news would definately affect his career. whadelse? bless him then. :D

and this cheeky little boy is holding maia's hand everytime.

:'(

why not .. mine?

And he's allergic to prawns! SAME! And like what.. he hugs his soft toys to sleep everynight. woot. Im going to buy the Mr bean bear very very soon, at ice lemon tee? hey hey, anyone?

Okay. enough of sly-ness. Im going mad. reallllll mad.

:P

I just hooked onto the son of the mask vcd yesterday. Its veryyyy nice. WATCH IT! The baby is soo KEWL. But.. not as cute as sly though.

Any recommendations for movies?

i wanna catch some, before schools starts and piling homeworks collapse on you again.

I suddenly feel that I SO DISLIKE HER.

PUKES.

RIGHT VAL? YOU KNOW WHO AM I REFERING TO..

I read her blog already.

"what .. . a . c .. d ... e.. f"

PUKES. and YOU DONO HOW SICK YOU MADE ME.

you suck. you are like "diaoing" me everything you see me. and what the hell you want when you actually pushed me slightly at the popular book store. i don't even know you. don't try to get my attention on you loh. oh the digested food is like gashing through my throat now.

Was actually having a nice sleep when mum suddenly banged all my books on the floor. I waslike "WHAT THE." People get agigated easily early in the morning, and my conclusion is that they didn't have enough sleep and was disturbed by some disturbing objects like the clock. but now, mine's the human clock, and yah, the fierce and violent human clock. Maybe she's having the intention to wake me up. But its like 9am in the sunday morning and you are disturbed by unwanted noise. and a bang even.

Aha. My trick? I ignored her when she talked to me; and continue doing so until.. she apologised, when she NEVER will.

Am going to do my homeworks, and later with my family. After everything's done I can chiong my holidays like siao already! :D

Heh. I still decided to blog here. Its troublesome to create new blog and finding skins and blah. Spotted a very nice skin, it was like bloody red but yet its cool! but I haf no idea why i cant download it. BOO.

I failed my physics! 13/30. it dragged my whole combined science down. DUH. I was quite disappointed lah. But.. yep, i'm not a science person.

my results..

English - - -

E maths - - - ( HE'S SLOW)

Combined science B4 64/100

Chinese A1 75/100

Amaths B3 34/50 (damn it, just one more mark)

Geography C6 20/40 (okay! I FINALLY PASSED! :D

Combined Humanities - - -

AND! I failed my suprise chinese test. I don't like leh! 34/100! This cleary shows that, my foundation isn't good. :C

Was actually asked if we can continue our friendship. I was very frank with her, like, I don't like her attitude. I mean.. I don't think anyone deserved to attitude me or whatever lah. But, the situation seems to get SOOO worse that heh, we ended. 11.14pm on 9th march. Sounds abit like LES but we're not.

I've to admit that.. I'm numb. I don't feel anything at all. I don't know whats happening to me basically. But come to think of it, I'm like abit too harsh. But, that's how I truly feel. I'm rather straight to my closer friends in some situations. Heh.

Okay, I've gotta go. GO WATCH TV. heh heh. SLACK TIME! :P

I'm REALLY PISSED with my mum. I helly don't understand why people become so fickle over money. Its just PAPER. you get it? She's not even working and was complaining" YOU KNOW HOW HARD TO EARN MONEY?" If she isn't willing to spend money on me, she shouldn't give birth to me at first. who the hell knows the O level's fees through giro was under her account? There she was complaining to my dad like what 370 bucks will be deducted. She can jolly well ask the goverment why there was an introduction of O levels in the first place. DUH. Its my Os.... hell. i'm studying 4 years fer my Os? f*uck. Like I want her to pay like that. how i know it will be under her account?! :ZZZZZZZZ.

Leave me ALONE.

Was actually shopping at westmall when i saw a familar guy yesterday where I shouted so enthusiatically & everyone was basically looking at him! Yeah. SLY!! Haha. I was actually walking around at westmall lah basically, and then sly, with his group of friends I guessed, suddenly came up from the basement escalator and I ran all the way to him and HELD HIM TIGHTLY. And he dared me to peck him.. Of course I tried, but.. he turned away and teased " haha", with his whinsome smile. woot. Oh yah. I haven't mention that I was shopping during midnight. YOU MUST BE WONDERING HUH SHOPPING DURING MIDNIGHT? Haha. Well, You get the idea? :: dreams occured during midnights, don't they? Except for napping during afternoon lah. Heh. :P

But yeah.. It was a really nice one.

And there went the fantasy I was wanting to have. The wanting.. Haha.

Mdm Leow was actually calling all 4e3 students for chemistry experiments early in the morning like around 730. But I was actually flabbergasted to actually see yiling doing experiment with mdm leow. Haha. And.. he actually smsed me and called me for the experiment. I was like wondering.. graduaters came back for experiment too? :P

Haha. Okay I'll end here. lala. I'm off fer my amaths. DUH. 2 more days.. yeah.. 2 more days before common tests end! :D

CA's not over YET. I was actually having difficulties in getting my butts to sit on the "studychair''uh, the chair where I'm forced to sit down for ..studying, but ended up going OG today just to walk around & browsing through clothes.

Nothing happened much lah basically. Just common tests & homeworks & tests and homeworks. And we've already seen the O level timetable already! The Os will be ending on 22nd novemeber! & I'll be celebrating my birthday on the 23rd! Heh. :D

YESTERDAY. YES. YESTERDAY WAS A SHOCKING DAY FOR ME & "ham".we were like .. encouraging HIM to woo HER. And i was like betting that SHE wouldn't accept him.. So.. I was like hinting him"HEY ITS THE RIGHT TIME." So.. They were like walking away from us lah, strolling down the beach while we were standing down there waiting for the.. BAD news. But.. I was actually rubbing my eyes when I saw them coming back with their hands holding together? ! But she ended up calling me this morning, telling me how regret she was. So.. I don't know how's the situation now, and I won't tell ANYONE who they are. So.. there's no use asking me. But if you've guessed it.. Then.. well.. let it be. :D

And heh heh. My seniors scored very well for their O levels. And.. I'm now having the strong urge to claim ;to anyone who have read the newpaper on.. I don't know which day was that, that PEER TUTORING DON'T HELP LOR. As what Mr Kann told us.. Peer tutoring is the blind leading the blind. I'm not saying that peer tutors are blind lah! I'm just trying to say that peer tutoring doesn't help.. Really. Its just a waste of time. We actually spent 5 hours a week for peer tutoring, where basically we WILL BE TALKING. and.. imagine, how much you can do in this 5 hours. Haha. Mr Kann is very opposed of our prinicpal. So.. He basically, too, opposed the peer tutoring session too lah. But I like his unique character, and I enjoyed his lessons. REALLY. He's a very calm person.. like what valerie said.." Even when there's a bomb he will still be very calm."

And yep. He scored quite well too;except for his chinese. If he did well for his chinese.. he will be getting like 12. Heh. He ah.. VERY SHUAI LEH. Darker I supposed, with his hair more-styled. :D I'm very happy for him lah. Getting into the JC he want. The memories actually flowed back, like.. Ngee Ann poly open house last year, causeway point, etc. But.. sometimes, you don't get the things you desire for....